Coping

Today I did very well staying away from any extra foods not allowed on my diet, or in excess of what is allowed. It was difficult, as all bad habits are to break, but not such a struggle that it was driving me to madness.

I've started trying to come up with new coping skills to keep my mind off of food, or at least keep me away from it so that I don't cheat. I know that by cheating, or lying about cheating, doesn't hurt anyone but myself. So there's no point.

First, I added a cayenne capsule to my morning pill schedule, and it kept my belly full of fire, to where I didn't feel like eating anything. I still had a faint desire to munch, but I didn't really feel like actually putting anything else in my stomach. I then took one after my dinner, since that is when I tend to slip up the easiest.

Second I decided to start a journal. Actually it is a list. Every time that I have a specific craving, and it doesn't go away after ignoring it for 5 minutes, I write it down, with the promise that I will eat it on my next loading days. Any time that I crave that again, I just put a little star next to it, so I don't fill up so many pages with nachos, Giant steaks smothered in garlicky sauteed mushrooms & onions, and buckets of cheese LOL. When the time comes, I'll eat what I craved the most. If it still sounds good, that is.

Third, as a little childish motivation, I have decided that once I get the money, I will get myself a sticker chart! How cool is that? I haven't had one of those since I was like 7! I haven't set my eyes on any prizes yet, but I do know that they will be something that I rarely do, and also non food related. I also am going to maintain the fact that when going for any said prize, I have to earn it by consecutive non cheating days, not total days disregarding the days I failed, and also that if I screw up, my counter resets to zero, and any previously earned prizes can not be earned again. Basically, if I strike out after 3 weeks, I have to make it to 4 weeks before I get a prize again.

I may start drawing again, since Ive already picked up the habit while visiting the doctor. It seems to calm my nerves and keep my mind off of things. Perhaps I can find a drawing pad pretty cheap.



On another note, Ive been hoping to get more followers and commenters, but haven't found any lately. Just knowing that people are reading my blog and keeping tabs on me really helps to motivate me to do well, so that I don't disappoint anyone. Please spread my blog around and give me some support!